i wrote a Q on my hand today.

I never thought I would leave narrative for exposition,
but I chose that pen a long long time ago.

I wish men didn't struggle with lust.

Lemon tea tastes better with honey than sugar.

I wonder how many popstars resent the public.

Judith Jamison.

The VP of the Muslim Student Association at OSU asked me to be part of their fundraiser for the tsumani victims. We are translating english into arabic for students for donations.

sometimes i seal letters with a chess piece.

Thank G*d I am not in charge of the world.

School:

i am taking 24 credits this term.

sheri was right- i must be masochistic.

Arabic 212 (4)

Ahlan wa Sahlan

Western Religion (3)
(Zoroastianism, Judiasm, Christianity, Islam, Bahaii)

Sctipurtes of the West

Western Ways of being Religious

Writing 496: Autobiographical Writing (4)

The Elements of Autobiography and Life Narratives

Linguistics 496/596: Linguistics and Literary Theory (4)

Marxism and the Philosphy of Language

Course in General Linguistics

S/Z

Dance 496: Creativity (3)

Creativity: Flow and the psychology of discovery and invention

Dance 454: Evolution of Modern Dance (3)

Vision in Modern Dance

English 421: Contemporary Irish Lit. (4)

Reading in the Dark

Paddy Clark Ha ha ha

Grace Notes

Irish Gaelic poetry

oh yeah, and my *thesis.

Welcome to the land of 12 hour class days. I am not really into self torture, these classes are seminars that are only offered every few years and I need them to graduate. why are they always squeezed into winter term? I have so much more to say but ... "but I don't know how" (homage to your Oasis quote sher).

you don't worry though, i'll find the words someday. And here's a public note to say: *thanks for loving me. I know that's not an easy endeavor.

*if you feel so moved to say a short prayer for me I won't object... I could really use help right now.

i need people.

as much as i try to convince myself its a plus and not a neccessity:

i turn psycho without you guys.

i need to grieve. but i'm stuck.

--Mikhail Baryshnikov was on CNN tonight and said, "true tollerance is manifested by art."
what do you think about that?

(he's the god of ballet if you're not familiar with him)

currently reading: code pink: women for peace

"what moves those of genius, what inspires their work,
is not new ideas,but their obession with the idea that
what has already been said is still not enough."

- Eugene Delacroix

brokenbroken

"The trick to flying is to throw yourself at the ground and miss."

guilty pleasure: appreciating silly comics from toothpaste for dinner.

...hm. there are deep things to talk about.
but... but.

American University of Beirut, Lebanon

photoperiodism

in my heart.

tired of analyzing
tired of excuses
tired of being the stuntman

tired of conditional love

i'm done
somehow

something needs to change
to be very different

my leaves are changing color
in winter

nothing will be "good enough"

I'm casting off.
the ambiguity of these sails
is not worth staying on the shore.

i'm tired.

love.
why am I so bad at it?

humanity has taken a serious blow in my heart.

autumn has been late.
photoperiodism:
death can be beautiful.

lifelifelife

nomorewords

I can only laugh at myself... through these tears on my cheeks.
I am watching a rendition of "A Christmas Carol" on television...
it's cheesey, like all the others... but I'm crying.
it's such a sad story!
that poor hard-hearted man!
it's honestly heartbreaking to me.
goodness, how funny am I?
I know, I know... but you know what?

I'm glad it breaks my heart.

(this is from London this summer)

why are the best things I write always on napkins?