May 23, 2005
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School:
I have been so slammed lately. Mostly with a bunch of Academia... and as much as I truly am honoured to be initiated into and speak as a representative of _____ (fill in the Academic blank of your choice), it's been so much that I can't even really enjoy it. In two days last week I had FKF initiations, a 40 minute lecture to a class, and a presentation to the English department... by then, what's even the point?
...I think the thing worse than the stress is when other people don't understand. There are a couple students I know who are hurt that they were not asked to present, and so their pain gets shifted into bitterness towards presenters... it makes me sad, and it makes me keep my mouth shut about all the junk I have to do. Then there are those that just don't get that I really love this stuff and it's a big deal to me (not the ceremony of it... I had enough banquets as an intern...) to be asked by my professors to represent them and have a chance to talk about material about which I am passionate. When they think its a waste of time I end up feeling... devalued? What a concept to try to grasp, huh? The "you don't have to understand, you just have to understand that it's important to me" moment. Wow I'm boring and predictable.
...for tonight, I am presenting my Honors Thesis. Finally. It's really done and now I just get to talk about it in a black eastern dress and heels. Drea--wish you were here to see the end result of all that stress. Hope you'd be proud.
Comments (5)
miss you...can't wait to talk again when your schedule slows down a bit...
i understand your stress. it's probably just because you're so pretty, and all those other kids are so ugly, so they picked you and now all the other kids are jealous.
ok, maybe not. i mean you are pretty, but i don't know these other kids, i shouldn't be so mean.
ok, nevermind, i do love you, i think you're great.
i think about you and everything that is lucky enough to be touched by you. good job on life. so proud of you. it's gottuh feel good somewhere inside of you to know that you're actually doing all this. as diana says in a chorus line "screw 'em." (that's for all those jealous people that jessy was talking about.)
i have this picture of you dancing with matt ruiz at my wedding. for a second i wanted to do it all again, ask god for a time pause and have a half hour conversation with every guest.
oh i miss you and your tumbling.
I could get lost in your thesis...I hope to.
Can hardly wait for my copy. Thank you for letting me be a part of you, and for sharing your world with me. Big hugs. You looked amazing up there. Nice earings...we'll figure out what to do with that jingly thing for next time.
2 or 3 down, PAH!...how many to go? 2 weeks left. Excited? Hugs. Love you. True-Work.
PC
erin you so impress me everytime i read your site. you are always up to something new and exciting and achieve so much. well done!
im keeping everyone here updated on your success! we all want to see you soon
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